| empty. Thoughtless void. This sadness that exists in my heart is like an un-fathomable abyss. Nothing I can do will ever fill it. Nothing. Nothingness, surrounds me. I try to scream out but no-one hears.. I am stuck at the bottom. never to emerge..
Depression sets in it takes hold and it won't let go. All I thought to be true, all that I held dear, gone. My life has no purpose! My very reason for being has been stripped away. God, I have asked God for strength, guidance and paitence that he may show me the way. But I'm still listless. In a drunken stupor of grief that I'm not finding any way to get out of. This is the last post you'll see on this site...it's very purpose to become closer to the one I held dear has FAILED. I have failed...I am a failure....Failure do you understand!!! For everything I do, for everything I repair, for every computer that gets fixed, for everything I've done, and every person I've helped. I have still failed!!! Failure. Something I thought I would never give in to. Well, guess there is a time to start then huh? For all my strength,all my paitence, I can't get over this, Goodbye.
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